Monday, February 7

Pregnancy

Since this will most likely be, ok definitely, almost probably (if I know it is, do I still have to admit it?) my last pregnancy I think its safe to finally admit that I am lousy at being pregnant. The worst. It's not that I don't try to love it, its just that...I don't. I do very much love the babies that come at the end of the marathon. But the marathon itself, I wish I could be cheering my husband along from the sidelines instead.
While my closet friends love every minute of it and bask in their pregnancy glow, I spend the first trimester attached the the toilet, thinking about the toilet, feeling like my head would never leave the toilet again. And despite the fact that I couldn't hold down my saltines, the scale will continue to climb into the unmentionable numbers.
My first pregnancy gifted me diabetes, my second sciatica, and third has me waking me with 2 am with the worst charlie horses ever. I have been walking briskly on the treadmill almost daily, well - sometimes just weekly (have I walked yet this month?) and yet, I get to the top of a flight of stairs and am gasping for breath.
At a mere 5 foot 2 inches means there is not much room for these guys to cohabitate and I feel like a human bowling ball.
Miserable.
So I look at pictures like this daily.
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And am reminded how lucky I am. A miserable 9 months for a lifetime with them, hardly a sacrifice at all.
I would start all over again, painful fertility shots and all.
So remind me, won't you, when I start to complain to pull on my big girl pants (pun intended) lace up my bootstraps, and just finish the marathon. It's almost over and the prize at the end is the greatest.
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6 notes:

Sarah said...

Such a cute picture of you and Noah! Your hair looks great:)

I have a hard time with the first 12 weeks too. The upset stomach mixed with the feelings of the unknown always get to me.

With Michael I loved the 2nd and 3rd trimester but with Colin the 3rd was hard (must have been my old age:)

Anyways, I know it's extra hard on you because there isn't much room for that baby to go! 2 more months and we will be chatting away at TG. You will be drugged and I will be kid free! Good times:)

Jess said...

Sarah, you and my sister are the model pregnant girls. I even told Mike he had it good having you as his pregnant wife. Looking forward to your TG visit, and also the drugs.

Anonymous said...

you certainly are beautiful!

Liz said...

Your amazing, don't doubt it. :)

Jen said...

You look great and are not the first to feel this way. love you
PS you make beautifil children.....

jessica said...

quit your f-ing complaining already!!
(Okay - that's what you asked for, right?)

I think you're amazing pregnant, Jess. Look how great you look in your picture. You're beautiful! Wish I was close to drop by and give you a mani/pedi!!