Luke, Day 2.

Last night didn't go as well as we had hoped for. After making small improvements through the day on his breathing he took some steps back. He was put on the max strength of CPAP and his blood gases weren't reassuring. He made it through the night without intubation though, so that made us happy. Today he remains on the high strength CPAP and continues to struggle to maintain a good oxygen level. So we are advised to have minimal contact/stimulation with him. No holding him today {tears}, and he still is not allowed to eat {makes him cranky, just like his mama when she is hungry}.

It's hard on the heart, sitting here next to him today. Watching him jerk and cry in discomfort and do nothing. When every pull inside you is telling you to pick him up, rub his back, soothe him.

But he finds comfort in little things. 

{Holding your hand.}

{His binkie.}

Not a lot we can do today but wait and watch. And offer the comfort of just being here.

{Baby steps.}